I’ve taken the last couple days to rest, to clear my mind and my sinuses. There comes a time when our bodies wear out and that’s exactly what happened yesterday morning when I woke up. We are practically forced to rest when our bodies aren’t functioning properly which is a great thing, yes (thanks AIM) but also can be a difficult task for me to fulfill… I instantly regretted speaking out about how I felt. I crawled back into bed at 8:30am yesterday morning and laid there thinking what I was going to do for 12 hours while everyone was out doing ministry, planting and painting (I do have FOMO). I wanted to be out there with them instead of stuck inside all day but what good would it bring to my body and spirit, I was obviously overly worked. I slept for a few hours and decided to start reading out of the Corinthian’s books. I learned about the Spirit’s power and faith resting on God’s power rather than on men’s wisdom. I also read a little out of my book “Soul Keeping” and wrote some encouraging notes to my squad mates where I have noticed seeds being planted within their work. The day ended sooner than I expected and day 2 of rest came. I seriously couldn’t imagine what I would possibly do today, I did it all yesterday. But today, I focused on finding rest in God. Rather than trying to plan out my entire day of rest, I decided to let him guide me. Psalm 23 explains, “He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, he restores my soul”. He does this all for me if I choose to trust in His plan for my day, today and every day.
One of the most difficult things for me is making time to sit in God’s presence. Here especially, I am constantly surrounded by the word, worship music and everything Jesus. It makes it difficult for me to go out of my own way to choose Him in every moment although I thought it would be easier, but it’s actually not. I find it difficult to rest, always. I run on a jam packed schedule everyday and I don’t like slowing down pretty much ever. In these moments of rest, I’m realizing what good it does for my soul alone. He is the greatest restorer and nobody or nothing else can make me feel as refreshed as Jesus. These past couple days have been a great reminder in my life to rest. I need to learn to find rest in each day and surely, my cup will overflow with the goodness and love He provides.
P.s. SO random but it’s 8:08pm & I just opened up my Soul Keeping book to where my bookmark was left off and it’s on a new chapter titled “The Soul Needs Rest”. Geeeeeze, there’s comes a time when you realize coincidences aren’t so coincidental… thanks God for the reminders literally everywhere.
Love always,
<3 P
